the good guy
I’ve spent my entire life trying to be a good person. My friends say I almost have this moral code I live by. I don’t quite see it like that, but i get what they mean by it. I’ve grown up always trying to do the right thing or say the right thing. I guess that’s just how I was raised.
But when it comes to women I sometimes get the feeling that this has become a hindrance. Maybe I’m just looking at the wrong girls or maybe I’m over-thinking this and completely over-looking my actual flaws (both of which are serious possibilities at this point), but I feel that, at least in college, no girl wants to date the really nice good guy. They seem to want to guy that’s just slightly messed up. Not the guy who pretty much has his shit together (although I’m not sure if I completely do, but that’s sure to be another blog post eventually). I guess they do this so they can fix him or something but it seems so off to me. Not until women hit a much later age do they seem to start realizing “Oh, I cant date the douchebag anymore, because they dont provide or treat me particularly well.” It just seems that I’m not the guy for any of the women I find myself interested in and I cannot begin to explain how absolutely frustrating that is.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m not all of a sudden going to become some greaser (I sometimes think I live in the 50’s) or gangster just because I want women to start thinking of me as “dangerous” or some bull. I’m too programmed to be a nice person for that. I’m just making some dumb observations that might just be the result of a melancholic mood and have no basis in actual reality.
